Tomorrow is mine and Chase Josiahs fourth month being together. We are engaged and very happy. After four months though, I worry that the engagement is too fast. People around us, I feel judge how fast we moved. I couldn't care less what they think of us, and I'm not afraid to let people know I'm in love.
I'm quitting drinking. Its a flaw of mine at 19 years old. Sad, huh? I go to my first AA meeting on Saturday. When I drink, I become mean and angry to Chase. But, to everyone else I'm as nice and fun, as always. I need to figure out why that is.. I feel as if its my mission. I'm not afraid to say, I have a drinking problem.
My parents don't seem to care what I do, my mother has two kids with a man she married. My half sisters, in which I haven't seen in over two years. My father, has a drinking problem himself, & is with a woman who couldnt careless if I had died.
I've been in and out of fosterhomes, placements and juvenile detention.
No one can find the love in they're hearts to love me, the way I needed, until Chase. He touches me so gently, kisses my forehead & cuddles me uncontrollably. He is MY SWEETHEART, the one I have needed from the beginning.
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